We are all limited : To live through every possible things in this world.

" I can never read all the books I want, I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want and why do I want ?. I want to live and feel all the shades, tones, and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life and I AM HORRIBLY LIMITED " Slyvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Slyvia Path 

When I ask people, what do you want in life ? I always get the same answer . " I don't know, maybe to get rich or to succeed this profession or be alone and travel " its always the same and by that I keep on asking myself, "Am I different ? why do I want to experience and feel everything and none of the people I live with, says the same sentiment that I have " . I wonder silently. 

Living this life. I know that I am destined to live for more. I am aware that I am meant to have more to live for. I don't know where it came from and this may come across as egotistical but I never felt like I was not enough. Rather, I frequently felt like I was too much. Too much for other people to bear and too much for me to be a part of their lives so I distanced myself because people who can never handle who I am, my thoughts, my views in this world, my beliefs and the way I perceive life will never be good for me. I find it quite annoying that I constantly have the impression that there is something more out there for me yet I am only living one life.

I believe that my purpose in life is to consume. To live for literature, poetry, music, movies, foods, fashion and ideas. To love the world, the environment and the creatures. To see people, watch them fall in love, grieve, be sad and become enraged. To enjoy successes and applaud those who have achieved them. Whether it's art, dance, sport, a song or another activity where people are present, I adore witnessing others fully engrossed in what they find enjoyable. Their eyes sparkle with delight as they talk about their experiences.

I want to read any book I can possibly get my hands on. I want to see every film, television show and documentary I can find. I want to listen to music, songs and melodies in whatever genre there is. Every kind of beauty that a sky, a flower, a tree or an animal could possess should be captured by me. I want to go to every concert, watch every play and travel to every nation in order to learn as much as I can about it. I want to have many lives so that I can not only feel and experience something but also live with it. 

I need to study more about the arts, literature, music, film, nature, animals, sports, foods, the universe, space, the ocean and all other types of life on our planet both living and non-living. I want everything. I want to keep learning, researching and discovering everything beautiful and unattractive things that exists in the world. " Something in me wants more. I can't rest " Slyvia Plath . I need more. I want more than anything that I currently have. It makes me feel like, I'm not contented but that's the truth. I want to have wild connection with every human being all over the world. To hear stories and be amazed.

I want to write stories, poetries and thoughts that I always do. I want to watch every films and movies about every genre that makes my mind more open, makes me think about how good life and how bad it is. I want to listen to every music and make music and feel it like I'm floating. I want to swim and fly like the birds and fishes. I want to be everything at all once. I always believe that I can fulfill it. All the things I want for its small pieces in atleast, " I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I want each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest but I believe that you can have them all, anything you can think of you can achieve" Slyvia Plath. I never want to limit myself from all the things it wanted to achieve and feel even though the world is actually chaotic and cruel. 

I am fully aware that life is tiring and draining but sitting and knowing nothing scares me the most. I rather die knowing everything than to die without feeling a thing. However, its the hardest truth that we can never have everything at all once. We must achieve it little by little, part by part and never be at once because WE ARE ALL LIMITED .